There’s a big difference between the person on the left and the person on the right. Most transformations are a good thing. We grow older and wiser and do things we are supposed to. However, I’d do anything to go back to being the person on the left. I was soo happy probably the happiest I’ll ever be in my life. I didn’t care so much about what outfit I was going to wear, how my hair looked, or if my makeup was flawless everyday. The only thing I cared about was loving Christ and doing his work. It is only in Christ can a person find true joy. In the past year I’ll admit I’ve been anything but a perfect Christian. Doing things, saying things, and acting differently than I ever had. I’d do anything to be that person I was. That person who was so pure and innocent. That person that believed that there was good in absolutely everything. I prayed the rosary twice a day. I went to mass twice a week. I read the Bible. I prayed the Liturgy of the Hours. I was such a good Catholic. Until one day, I started falling to sin. It started small and then worked it’s way to worse and worse sins. Now, I just sit here and look at myself and I hate what I’ve become. I’ve become something that I’ve never wanted to be. Now, I want to go back. If there was a way to reverse time I would do it all over again. All I can do now is repent and hope to be a better person. I’m sorry to the so many that looked up to me that I’ve fail and let down. I’m so sorry. I promise I’m going to change. I want to be a saint. I want to be a good person. It’s not too late for me. I can be the Christian I was designed to be. It’ll be a tough battle but I know it’ll be worth it in the end.
What do you do when you feel like giving up? When you look everywhere for love and acceptance, but can’t find it? When you don’t want sympathy, but just for people to care. When you live a whole other life without anyone knowing. When you feel like the world is ending, but it’s only the beginning. That factor scares you the most. The fact that it’s beginning. That this isn’t the end. The fact that you have to go through this longer. Where do you go? Whom do you turn to? When you’re angry at God and feel as though He doesn’t listen. When you hear people give explainations for this, but you still feel abandoned in your pain. When something that was such a big part of your life is now gone. When the things that define you are no longer there. Whom am I? What am I to do? You must look for yourself. You must meet yourself where you are. Take things not day by day, but moment by moment. Remember the important things. Never give up. Be strong. Know that things don’t define you, and that you’re not easily defined. Open your eyes and open your heart. Love others, and that way you can learn to love yourself. Look for the good. Be open to new experiences and allow yourself to grow. Have faith.
When I was two years old I was diagnosed with Juvinile Rheumatoid Arthritis. Arthritis is something I’ve had practically my whole life. We’ve had good times with no pain and bad times with horrible pain that I couldn’t ever move. When I first started on medication there was nothing I could do really. I was on a cancer treating drug, and it helped a little. After that stopped working I was on numerous other medication. My family has prayed for my healing for so long. We have prayed, priests have prayed over me, and we were trying everything. My arthritis at this point had gotten so bad that I couldn’t even dress myself. Walking was torture for my and I had to give up playing my favorites sport (baseball) because of it. At this point I was in 8th grade. Through continuous prayer we were given an amazing opportunity. A new test drug came out and it wasn’t officially approved for treating arthritis, so my doctor had me join the case study. It worked. It was amazing. I’ve never had an issue with my arthritis since. The only down side is that it lowers my immune system and I had to go to the hospital once a month to a get an IV for 2-3 hours. It was worth it. They always said arthritis couldn’t be “cured” or go away,but I’m happy to say that through the grace of God I was put on this medicine. Now, 6 years later I am being taken off this drug because my doctor believes I don’t need it any more. I’m overjoyed, this is one of the few times in my life that I’ve been completely off medicine. I praise God and give all glory to Him because of it. Never give up hope. God, if it’s His will, will provide.
I had a couple followers interested in what it is like for me to be a Catholic anon, so here it is:
Being a Catholic anon is a lot different from having a personal account or having a regular anon. To start off I’ll tell you about how I decided to become an Catholic anon. It was about 2. 5 years ago when I started this anon page. It was the end of my junior year of high school. I decided to become an anon because on my personal Twitter I would tweet a lot of Catholic things and would try to evangelize the people I went to school with ( I know that sounds dumb but I was like 16). I felt like I needed to do something more. It felt like I was reaching a limited audience because people knew it was me. So I thought making myself anonymous would make it so I could reach more people, so that’s what I did. 2.5 years later and here I am today! Being a Catholic anon is weird. There are some days when you’re so inspired by the Holy Spirit and you post a million tweets, but there are other days where it’s a struggle to tweet one tweet. I am constantly trying to think of new tweets and ways to inspire/ relate to people. When I mean constantly it’s the truth. Every time I hear something inspiring or think of something people might like I immediately write it down. I also like to make people laugh so when I think of something funny I do the same! It’s weird to have people actually look up to you in the faith. Especially when you’re not that good at it to begin with. It’s always a struggle when people put you on a pedestal like your supposed to be perfect this why I like to remind my followers often that I’m a sinner like them (or worse than them). I like to include my struggles because it helps them know they’re not alone. It also helps me know I’m not alone as well. It’s really humbling. For example, you might tweet an opinion you think is correct, but one of your followers might give you a new perspective on the issue. You realize you won’t be right 100% of the time. You also realize that not everyone will like you. There are people in this world who just will not like you no matter what. Sometimes you just have to deal with it. It’s interesting for so many people to know you and some of your inner thoughts, but don’t really have a clue who you really are! Having my Twitter helps my faith so much. My followers inspire me 1000000x more than I can ever inspire them. I’ve met so many amazing people through this anon many of whom I now consider great friends! Overall, this account has been such a blessing to me and I’m thankful everyday for it.
I don’t know about you guys, but I sometimes have those moment where I’m just like “I’m worth more.” Today, I was texting this guy and you know it was casual. It started off talking about Star Wars and the new movie. We talked about Han and Leia’s relationship. He was flirty with the “Will you be the Leia to my Han?” It then somehow proceeded to him telling me he likes that I “have more curves than Leia” and then proceeded to ask if I shopped at Victoria’s Secret because then I would be the “whole package.” I just had to stop. I had a light bulb moment where I just realized that I’m worth more than this. I realized that I didn’t want the next guy I date to be like this. I knew I deserved more. I knew that I deserved a guy who would look after my soul and love all of me, not just my body. It helped me come to the conclusion that the next guy I get in a relationship needs to be one that will respect me, care for the salvation of my soul, and had to be Catholic. There’s a huge temptation in the world for devout Catholics to date non-Catholics because it feels as though there are so few devout Catholics out there. They are out there, I promise. This brings me to another point. You shouldn’t date/talk to someone who does not agree with you on abstinence. It’s extremely important. It just leads to temptation and heart break tbh. There is also nothing wrong with being single. Being single really is not that bad. It is actually quiet awesome. It is not the end of the world if you’re single. I don’t understand why there is such a bad stigma in our society about being single. Being single doesn’t mean that you’re ugly, undesirable, a loser, etc.Its perfectly okay to be content with being single. My last point is this: God made you wonderfully and with purpose. You were put here on this earth for no reason. You weren’t made “ugly”. A simple man or woman cannot define your worth because your worth does not come from man, but from God.
While at mass I was kneeling in my pew right in front of where the priest was giving out communion. I sat there and prayed a prayer of thanksgiving. Then as I saw each person go up I then realized that each and every one of those people just received Jesus. Like they didn’t just receive a “piece of bread” but the ACTUAL body of Christ. They received Jesus’ flesh. I just knelt there in amazement. It blew my mind, and I realized how much good was happening right there and then in our church. My heart began to be filled with joy over the fact that Jesus Christ, our Savior, was there in the flesh. He was being received by people of all ages young and old. He was impacting every single one of their lives in someway. Jesus was in each and everyone of those people. Each one of those people who were receiving in a state of grace were taking one step closer to sainthood. I was surounded by a group of future saints. It was a beautiful. It gave me peace because I then knew our Catholic Church will never fail because we have something special here. We have Jesus in the Most Holy Eucharist. Praise Jesus because He loves us so much that He becomes present for us at every single mass, and wants us to receive Him. The Eucharist shows that God wants to be with us. Oh how amazing it is to have a God who loves us so dear! Be thankful for Him❤️
Trusting God is one of the most challenging things for me. I like to be in control, and know what’s happening 24/7. It is beyond difficult to me to give up control. I would describe my journey to trusting God like trying to get a two year old to do something he/she doesn’t want to do. Now if you work with children or have children you know how much of a challenge that can be, but they eventually do it. So basically that’s where I’m at right now. As most of you know I was discerning the religious life for about 2-3 years, but I came to the conclusion that I was not called to it. I now am discerning the call to marriage (I know it might sound weird to do that when I don’t even have a boyfriend, but I think it’s important). Okay so now you all know that I believe I am called the marriage, and along with marriage I believe I’m called to be a mother. In the past 6 months I’ve figured this out, and I was all set and thought “I can deal with this.” Everything was fine until God decided to throw me a curveball. In May, I found out that I had to go for surgery. You might be thinking what does this all have to do with trusting God? I promise I’m getting there. So I found out the possible things that could go wrong with my surgery. One of the major things is that it might cause me to be unable to have children. With this surgery the chances of having that happen is very high. This freaked me out so bad because I was like “GOD, I THOUGHT WE HAD A DEAL.” I was so confused because a month before I thought I came to terms with my vocation, but then this happened. I began to lose some faith because I was just so frustrated. It was a hard time for me, but recently I came to the conclusion that I needed to trust God and His will. I need the surgery, and it wasn’t like I could back out of it. I began to analyze the situation, and began to wonder what am I so worried about? This doesn’t mean God loves me any less,and if God wants me to have children He will let it happen. I also talked to this women at my parish who was told that she would never be able to have children, so she adopted a child. When she went to pick up the child she was adopting she actually found out that she was pregnant. She explained to me that if it is God’s will just say yes and it will happen. The same day the gospel reading spoke to me. It read:
“One day he got into a boat with his disciples and said to them, “Let us cross to the other side of the lake.” So they set sail,and while they were sailing he fell asleep. A squall blew over the lake, and they were taking in water and were in danger. They came and woke him saying, “Master, master, we are perishing!” He awakened, rebuked the wind and the waves, and they subsided and there was a calm.Then he asked them, “Where is your faith?”” Luke 8: 22-24
One could see why I was instantly connected with this because I was viewed my surgery as a storm. The apostles reminding me of myself because they were freaking out about something that was going on that Jesus had full control over. It was kind of refreshing to see that even the apostles struggled with trusting the Lord. I felt as though I was in good company. Jesus calmed that strom then the same way He can calm the storm that might be happening in your life. We must learn to trust God, and remember that He will never forsake us. He will be with us always and guide us. Trust Him!
I feel like this is so important. I’ve seen many posts making certain mental illness look romanticized. With sights such at Tumblr and other social media glorifying mental illness, it’s actually been a trend among teens to pretend to have mental illnesses. I know this sounds crazy, but yes it actually happens. It’s actually becoming a tad of an epidemic in my town and many other towns. Many teens are actually pretending to have mental illness for attention and because it’s “poetic” or “cool”. Mental illness is nothing to be glorified but is something to be treated and delt with care. Having a mental illness is serious, and should be treated that way. Do not listen to these sick ideas that make having a mental illness to be so incredible. Mental illness is not fun, and if you asked anyone who has one they would most certainly say that the wish they didn’t have it. It’s so tragic to see this. You are beautifully and wonderfully made, and the way you are is amazing. Please don’t pretend to have a mental illness. When one pretends to have a mental illness it takes away from those who actually suffer from it. I believe this quote domes it up nicely “”I think suicidal people are just Angels that want to go home” I think suicidal people are dangerously ill individuals who feel this way not by choice, but because they have a mental illness. For comparison, how ridiculous does it sound saying “I think people with congestive heart failure are just angels that want to go home”? Mental illness isn’t beautiful or desirable. But YOU are.” Do not get tempted by this, and seek some spiritual guidance if you are tempted to pretend to have a mental illness. Please pray for our youth. They desperately need your prayers.
Today’s world is desperate for great leadership to emerge. Have you ever thought about making a difference and standing up for what is right? If you have you should consider these tips on how to be a leader. You don’t have to be a leader on a large-scale; you can be a leader in small ways. For example, living an authentic Christian life can be considered leadership because you are leading by example. The definition I would used to define leadership is a person who takes responsibility of baptism/confirmation seriously, and one who develops true happiness from Jesus. Here are some lessons I learned from a former Swiss Guard, and I thought were very important to share. In order to be a great leader one must model the way for others. Meaning they must live the life they want to inspire. One must have an inspired vision, and challenge that vision. One must also enable others to act, and encourage people from the heart. This is how great leadership is formed. The former Swiss Guard gave great advice when he said “Do not try to change someone else until you change.” This quote means that in order to lead and in order to inspire one must change themselves into the person they want the other to be like. So in essence in order to bring someone to Christ one must become like Christ.
Jesus was the greatest leader who ever lived. We have a lot to learn from Him and how he led. Here are 15 steps one should take in order to be a great leader:
- Don’t compromise your principles.
- Don’t waste time.
- Pay attention to the little things.
- Embrace sacrifice.
- Pray boldly.
- Care for others.
- Accept obstacles.
- Finish the task.
- Be at peace.
- Call on Mary (the Queen of Peace).
- Surround yourself with great counselors.
- Please God, not men.
- Stay humble.
Hi everyone! I’m back! I’ve decided that I can finally be able to manage to keep a balanced life to the point where I can manage tweeting! I’ve really missed you guys, and you all mean so much to me. I’m excited to restart this project, and use it for the glory of God! I can’t wait to share with you all the things I’ve learned and experienced these past few months. I thank you all for sticking by me, and being supportive! You all are a blessing! I promise some wicked awesome blog posts to come and I can’t wait to start interacting with all of you again. It was a nice cleanse being away, and I now have more peace than ever. I feel like I’m spiritually ready to do this project with its full intent. I’m excited for what is in store!